Submitted on Wednesday, May 28, 2008
By Alana, 20, from Boston, MA:

I'm 20. He's 21. Yes..we've had sex. We tried working something MORE out, but some useless drama happened (I found out he had feelings for someone I thought he was over.....and I was the one responsible for helping him MEET her. Stupid me. I didn't like him at that time. I was "Seeing" someone who was playing with my head while THIS guy was comforting me.) After our big argument over that situation, we agreed that we'd be JUST FRIENDS, nothing MORE than that. But RECENTLY, this has been happening even AFTER we talked things out: This guy holds me in front of his friends. He cuddles with me a lot...looks at me all the time...(sometimes we just STARE at eachother.) He likes to wrestle with me, tease me, call me weird names....He tells me about his life, what he wants to do in the future, what he likes, what he doesn't.. just all this personal stuff, and I can do the same with him as well. He even LETS ME go THROUGH his stuff, like his drawers and all that. Recently, when another guy asked him "Can you hook me up with her?" HE said, "No..she's mine" ... (then the guy asked him if he could hook up with one of my girlfriends who is TAKEN, he told the guy, "No...she's John's") You know, when I woke up one morning... I felt his arms around me..so I turned my head and I saw his face sleeping. This is the FIRST time I have woken up to him. He woke up after an alarm went off, got up from the bed...and then went back, put his arms back around me, and fell asleep. I have realized I truly have feelings for this man! But I'm still wondering what the hell is going on because I think he still wants the other person that I hooked him up with before. Before we had sex RECENTLY though, I reminded him that we agreed NOT to do it anymore... He asked "why", and I admitted to him that i DO genuinely like him despite what happened...he gave me a weird look and asked, "what's wrong with that?" And all of a sudden, I noticed that during sex, he comes FASTER than usual..even when I'm not, or he's not, EVEN trying! what the hell is going on!?? He even kisses me softer after that....It really seems like we are together, I swear. He gets jealous of other guys and checks up on me from time to time... I really do have feelings for this guy... but I'm so afraid to actually DIVE in and help make it official... I don't want to end up walkin around in circles and getting hurt.